Current mood:	anxious
Current music:	the stranglers - peaches
Entry tags:	boys, bsg, comics, crying, dbz, love, my stupid heart, woodland

where black is the color and none is the number
i am in woodland still.

where?

exactly.

if i already made that joke, i am not sorry. a boy loved me for a long time and then stopped. it was okay. i mean, it wasn't at first. then it was.

another boy with whom first mentioned boy played d&d met me one night. it may have been the last night of BSG, which i cried the entire way through. cant remember, dont care.

"days, all one kind, go chasing each other".

second boy took me to see watchmen with a mutual friend. i cried the whole way through that, too, but, jesus, if you know me at all you coulda called that one. this other boy knew i had nowhere to go, i mean, not quite nowhere, exactly, but nowhere i felt safe at or wanted to be. he also knew that we both like videogames and comic books a lot.

i guess we fell in love or whatever. fuck you. it happens.

sometimes you can talk to someone for ten seconds, or look at them, and you both just go holy shit. you are me if i weren't me. i will never lie to or not want to be next to you, and, despite knowing how irrational these thoughts may be, it doesn't matter because when i am next to you everything else goes away.

so go ahead. give me a what the fuck or a high-five.

i. feel. safe.

annnd he showed me this today: (there are nine eps, all worth watching)